Chose Life!

Ever had someone living in fear of you for 4 years? The slightest hint of you would drive that someone ballistic. My actions; like ripples in water, would become tsunami in their shores. The fear that eats up in the heart; if not made known, would rear its ugly head, causing much hurt to one and all.

So, my advice is… Be right before God else, you will be like the psalmist in Psalms 38:4, "My guilt has overwhelmed me like a burden too heavy to bear." Always be at peace with your actions, if it so happens that you caused hurt to anyone, be sure to seek forgiveness. And if you have any greviences towards other people, please check yourself against the Word of God and if your actions are right before God, bring the persons aside and talk peace peacefully. Then, your past would not haunt you.

These few days, I have been asking God why He had allowed such drama to happen in my life. Have I not been right before you, O Lord? Why would I be punished for the sins of others? Why had you allowed me to be called an adulteress and harlot? Why do I have to live in fear of a crazy person unknown to me? Why inspite of all the sins that person had previously rendered towards me, would you allow that person to come back and haunt me?

God patiently answered me, this is my purpose for you. And I praised God for being faithful to me. I praised God that nothing bad happened to my family and friends. Hell had no fury like a **man scorned. I praised God he didnt allow me to be as crazy.

1  The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3  He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.
4  Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5  Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
6  Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

My trip last Sunday as uneventful as it was, was seemingly okay. Praise the Lord for He indeed works miracles! I wasnt confident at all whether the task ahead of me would be completed with pizazz. Hoping to get good results, I was utterly dissapointed when my abilities were tested. Alas! I thought I was prepared! But my lack of skill only showed my short comings. Before the big thing, I was having jitters and butterflies. Panic attack would be an understatement. I was an emotional train wreck.

A short prayer for help soothed wat’s left of my nerves and I took a deep breath and plunged in. God, if this is Your will, pls carry me through it all. My Father in heaven heard my prayer and came forth to rescue. The outcome of my huge trial was not great.. Not even enough I should say, but He gave me His peace that surpasses all understanding. He guarded my heart against all evil and paralysing fear. Praise the Lord for He is great!

Yesterday, a few close frens of mine suffered a huge lost. Their loved one returned home to the Lord. There was nothing me and my bros and sistas could do, but just stand in silence. We could neither say nor do anything, but we could stand there. So we stood.. The silence was deafening, no words were exchanged but we were there for them, always and forever. They will remain in our bedtime prayers and thoughts always. The Lord bless you and keep you and give you peace…

With my emotions still fazzled after all this weeks’ sad turn of events, I had a surprise phone call in the morning after. Some person whom I do not know called me at my busiest and moodiest time of work (mind you, I am still mourning). The conversation inferred me as a "female dog" which was neither welcomed nor anticipated. Some over zealous girlfriend of a fren accused me of trying to pry her man from her.. I was furious at the comparison, how could a stranger say that to me? Besides, your guy wasnt Keanu Reeves. But after a whole days’ reflection, I started to see the funny side of things. Hahahah… Thanks my dear. That was a compliment indeed, to think that I have the power to drive people crazy. A lesson of patience and forgiveness learnt in trials… To forgive is divine..