Chose Life!

Another year, another Christmas… "What have you been doing?" asks God. Me? I’ve been extremely busy… Coping with vocation responsibilities, juggling between time for my family and friends and my calling in church.

Sadly, I’ve been too busy this year to spend quiet time with Him who created time. I’ve failed numerous times to make myself trully available for my appointment. What with questions on my future undertakings, my highly (almost absurd) goals for myself, I wonder if I’m actually doing His will. I gotta slow down… Notice how I rush through Sundays, bags in tow, always running to settle some issues? Haha, that’s the pattern I follow throughout the whole week.

Realising that I’m near burnout and that I’m no longer as agile as I was years back (sad but true), I need a breather. This Christmas season.. I will wait on Him. What is your direction for me, my Lord? What do You want me to offer You that I have not yet?

Things in the past, things yet unseen,

Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true,

All of my hope, all of my life,

My heart and my hands are lifted to You.

And Lord I offer my life to You,

Everything I’ve been through,

Use it for Your glory,

Lord I offer my days to You,

Lifting my praise to You,

As a pleasing sacrifice,

Lord I offer You my life.

Just last few weeks, I’ve been told my priorities were not aligned with the world. Am I supposed to be happy about that or sad? The friend who told me that advised me against becoming a fanatic. The reason I’ve been marginalized is that I go to church every Sunday, join camps and retreats. I’m different; it’s almost like I’m untouchable.